I Bruise Easily

Hello All,

I'm sure we've all been left bruised at some time or another. I speak in the context of Emotional and Mental bruising and not the physical kind.

Have you noticed that sometimes you bruise yourself ? or you let yourself bruise ?

One tries to keep one's guard up , and stay safe and act proper and then... Out Comes A Strong Element of nature and makes you give in, makes you react, makes you do things you usually wouldn't.

You Stumble, You fall, You give up, You pick up. You Stumble again, You Fall again, You give up again and You pick up one more time. It's like a song that stays on "Repeat". 

You repeat this again and again and again..and you convince yourself that you're doing this because it makes you happy and you do feel happy. You feel happier than ever, even though each step of the latter is in fact, making you weaker and emotionally wrecking you. 

There are those that don't phase easily. Unfortunately or Fortunately, I'm one who does. 

Unfortunately , because it takes a lot of my time , energy, focus and emotions but again I think

Fortunately, because it makes me stronger, teaches me new lessons, give me a wider range of thinking and so I think in the end, All is Fair. 

On that Note :

My skin is like a map

Of where my heart has been

And I can't hide the marks

It's not a negative thing

So I let down my guard

Drop my defences down by my clothes

I'm learning to fall 

With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily 

So be gentle when you handle me

There's a mark you leave

Like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily

Can't scratch the surface

Without moving me underneath

I bruise easily

Love,

Yours truly

Aurora Borealis - His Northern Light

Your Aurora Borealis

The wonder of the Aurora Borealis is that it is a completely natural phenomena, nobody owns it, nobody can affect or alter it and nobody can determine the longevity of any given display. Basically, Lady Aurora will hang around for as long as she sees fit.

A display of the Northern Lights can last just a few short minutes or dance across the Arctic sky pretty much all night long. There are few things in life more frustrating than when a faint splash of green appears for a few minutes against a pitch black night sky and then simply disappears without developing into anything you’d recognise as being the Northern Lights. Fortunately, there is the other side of the coin when the Lights produce the sort of show that would have rock concert light show technicians drooling and can last from 10pm until 4 or 5am.

The Aurora will strut her stuff for between 20 minutes and two hours. But, as with anything auroral, it all comes down to Mother Nature; from the vibrancy and intensity of the display to the length of any particular appearance.

Therein lies the beauty and the magic of the Northern Lights, no two occurrences are ever the same and this is surely why our partners up there in the Auroral oval tell us that they never, ever tire of watching them.

Enta Rouhi,

As much as it gives me so much pride and happiness to be even considered symbolic of this majestic and captivating Auroral beauty, I must say that I don't have the attitude and the gusto she encompasses. If only I could emulate her and take over her persona of true natural majesty, I'd have you to myself by now. 

This Auroral Beauty that belongs to you is just the opposite in nature.

This Auroral Beauty would wait around for you day and night and only go away when you go away.

This Auroral Beauty would turn her surroundings upside down and cause serious havoc just to have you to herself even for a while.

This Aurora Borealis dances and struts her stuff only for you. Her colorful beams only shine for you. She is not proud. She simply craves for a minute of your attention so she can show you what she's got, so she can show you all her talents and make you happy. Her world has begun to revolve around you.

This Northern Light comes alive for you and dies down into a insignificant particle in your absence.

Title : Aurora Borealis

I lay in my bed and think about you

I love you so much I don't know what to do

I feel your warmth at my side

The pain in my heart moves to my eyes

So far away yet always so near

You are the reason I am still here.

I await the times when we can talk

I await the times we can finally hold hands and walk

To feel you for real... so close to me

The happiest person in the world is what you would make me.

Your eyes shine like a million suns

You shine more brightly than anyone

Your smile so sweet can't help but make me smile

It stops my world even for a little while

I await the time when my hand is in yours

To hear you say those 3 little words.

There are still no words I can say to describe

My heart it aches and my eyes they cry

But when we talk my heart flies

I know you would always wipe away the tears I cry.

Even though you aren't here

And I miss you so much my dear

I'll love you forever and ever..

Your aurora borealis awaits your return.. 

By : Yours Truly

My Experiences (even the worst) Only Made Me Stronger and Wiser.. Here's HOW !

Hello Fellow Humans and Faithful Readers,

It's a Saturday Night - 11:30 PM , 28th February 2015. I'm sure most of you are out having a blast and living up your weekend with your loved ones and friends. Good for you !!!!

I , on the other hand am sat home tonight , suddenly coerced by my current surroundings to Blog on this warm and breezy night.

Sat here, with a cup of Twinings best tea, I reflect on my very short life of 26 years out of which 12 were great , 11 were traumatic and the very recent 3, Humbling and Blessed.

I can't get down to the very detail of it but let's just say some experiences in my life had left me feeling worthless in my own skin, unsettled in my own mind, had me looking down on myself for years on end, had me doubting every move I made, and made me lose my shine and charm everyone said I had as a young girl.

From Judgemental People within the family circle , to friends and teachers who thought I was a lost cause and then to significant others who deemed me Listless and Clueless.



My most developmental years were spent in a place that was very different to my upbringing, moorings and ideals and put me into a place of absolute confusion and darkness. I was crying out for help by acting out in a million different ways but I was too young, confused and lost to express myself perfectly and neither could those around me remotely fathom what I was going through.

I decided to begin living an independent life at a bright age of 17 . Just out of high school, I started working a full time job while putting myself through a college degree via correspondence.

I worked well and did myself proud and was never looked at in the light of a simple high school grad even on the day I went for my first interview at a multinational computer technology company and got accepted the same day, might I add.

That day, I was a young lady full of gusto & confidence ready to take on this corporate life and everything else that came along with it. I started work the very next day.

During this time, I worked hard to make end's meet. One doesn't get paid those fat cheques when all you have is a high school certificate. I lived in a 100 Sq/Ft One bedroom (literally one bedroom with a bed and a study table and an attached bathroom). Friends and Family who knew me/raised me in the life I had, were quite shocked when they saw me living this life for obvious reasons. I, on the other hand was a far cry away from giving up on the life I started.

I admit , there were tough times and difficult days when I thought, I might have made the wrong choice but there was always a voice inside my head telling me "This too shall pass" and so it did.

There were days when all I had were a few bucks and half a month to get through. There were days when I didn't have enough to eat full meals or money to buy myself bottled mineral water and days when all I lived was on a packet of chips and some pickles because it was the cheapest food available. I'm sure this gives you an idea of my financial status.

However, at the end of each day, I was at peace with myself.

Years went on this way . In a couple years, I landed a better job with a better pay , moved into a bigger place, one that had a kitchen and a little living room and Alas !! I couldn't have felt happier.

I had just entered my 20's and life seemed good. I had sorted things out with my family and they were starting to accept the life I'd chosen for myself.

Tough days were ahead. My little world that comprised of my job mostly and a few loved ones, didn't seem to give me complete satisfaction and I looked for inspiration at every nook and cranny.

Friends, Guys of Interest weren't any source of inspiration . One really gets to know who their real friends and loved one's are in Trying Times.

I then found inspiration from things and those I loved and those things that made me happy. At the end of the day, it most certainly is about being happy and content. Don't you think ?
I got back into music. Music and singing was, is and will always be one passion of mine that always get's me feeling better about life.

Later, I started feeling a strong spiritual vacuum and I restarted living a spiritually conscious life. A life where you give more than you take, A life where you find solace in the simple things and the gift of this Life itself. I think this was a stage in my life that really changed things around for me.

The good stayed. The worst I kicked out. 

I was at more peace with myself and the world around me because I no more blamed circumstances, people and situations.

I exercised Strong Faith, Hoped all Things and Loved all Things. 

I'm sure there are millions out there who've been through worse or been through more trying times and situations than I have but I always seem to come across quite a few or get a sense that there are still some humans out there like you and me who accept their LOT in life and feel they've got to live with it just because that's what they've been served.

I've learned, Life is what YOU make of it and not what it tries to make of you. There is ALWAYS a WAY to set things right and take control of your own life even if you've been served unfairly.

I've heard many people say and quote so proudly:

"When Life gives you Lemons , You make Lemonade"(What a load of Crap!!)

I Say, When Life gives you Lemons, Don't Make Lemonade. GET MAD !! and Yell !! 
"I don't want your damn lemons. What am I supposed to do with these? **** your Lemons.

All the lemon's I got served ; I didn't accept them and Hell! I didn't make lemonade. I threw them back at the Rue that served them and worked towards getting me some serious Apples and Oranges and then some....
Took me time and still takes me time but I always find me a shiny sweet apple or a bold orange.

Today, I am Happy, I am Content, I Love and I Live. 

All in All, each lemon and each experience made me stronger, wiser, tougher, better, kinder and most of all , made me realize how important it is to Love and Live.

Without Love, Self Sacrificing Love, Hopeless Love, Unconditional Love and THE WILL TO LIVE, You are Nada.

 It is now, 2:30 AM and although it seems like I could go on, it's only fair that I close this post now.

Until next time I leave you with this :

Love,

Frieda

That's Life !!!

Hello, Masah al Khair und Guten Tag All My Lovely Fellow Humans,

It has been quite a while since I last posted on my blog however I am so glad to have found a glorious muse that helped me get back into it.

"That's Life !!!!"



How many times we have said it... How many times we have felt it... How many times we have lived it..!!

Today.. I say it !! I feel it !! I live it !!

Sometimes in life, things are meant to be and not to be, but as human as we are, we try to go against all odds and make things work.
It takes time, It takes patience, It takes work, It takes commitment and It takes a whole lot of Sacrifice.

Today I'm happy, I'm content, I'm grateful, I'm thankful and most of all I love being Me and I thank everyone who's helped make that happen and a special one who's made it all the more worth it !!! You know who you are.

I've reached this stage , without a plan, without a phased approach. I went through a whole lot of Literal Rubbish to get here but I am living every second of a good life to the fullest knowing that someday, one fine day, It'll all be worth it and "That's Life".

A great person once said "Cut It.. And Chill.. Life Makes It's Way"

I agree a 100% but then Life is what you make it.. isn't it ?? and It's all about making each day count. Whether it works in your favor or not ??? Well That's Life isn't It :)

In the words of an all time favorite singer/artist - Frank Sinatra

"That's life, that's what people say
You're riding high in April,
Shot down in May
But I know I'm gonna change that tune,
When I'm back on top, back on top in June

I said, that's life, and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks,
Stompin' on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down,
'Cause this fine old world it keeps spinnin' around

I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself flat on my face,
I pick myself up and get back in the race 

That's life, I tell ya, I can't deny it,
I thought of quitting, baby
But my heart just ain't gonna buy it
And if I didn't think it was worth one single try,
I'd jump right on a big bird and then I'd fly

I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself layin' flat on my face,
I just pick myself up and get back in the race

That's life, that's life
And I can't deny it
Many times I thought of cuttin' out but my heart won't buy it
But if there's nothing shakin' come here this July
I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball and die
My, my "

Eternal Love,
Frieda